Really the last post

6:16am

Palengke here I come

I'm having a cup of coffee and a bowl of cereals. Mamaya pupunta na kami sa palengke ni mama, for New Year's. Tapos may biglang pumasok sa isip ko.

I'm gonna cook pasta.

Either tuna pomodoro (as inspired by Chass), or pesto pasta. I google-d the recipes, and I think pesto would be fine. Wish me luck sa cooking escapade ko!

Last Post for ze Year

1:13am

I don't usually make written New Year's Resolutions, only mental notes. But since my blog has been a good mental outlet for me, might as well mentally note them here. I have a so bright year ahead. Hopefully when I visit this post again, I'll be telling myself, "Slash off ko na'to, hindi naman pala kailangan." Or pat myself on the back for accomplishing one. Here goes.

1. More jogging trips

I have bought running shoes. Running shoes. I'm going to exploit that. Sana makapag-jogging ako at least one a week. Ten laps ang goal, five laps ang minimum. *scratches head* Is this enough? I'm planning to wash all those fats away.

2. Basketball

My mama bought me a basketball ball for a Christmas gift. I do hope to learn the basics before the year ends. *dribble dribble*. Oh shoot, nabitawan ko. Crap. Again.

3. DDR

DDR stands for Dance Dance Revolution. I had my first try at Timezone Trinoma. After that I was craving for more. Next year I'll have more with my Ninong Mel.

4. Money

I have to save money. Finances aren't going as good as planned. Whew. I can do this.

5. OJT

I have yet to find a practicum job. Sa summer na siya, so panic mode na ba dapat ako?

Oh, it has gone long enough. What's your New Year Resolutions?

Jogging

7:15am

Dahil hindi ako makatulog, nag-jogging na 'lang ako. Starting from the dark dawn skies of five in the morning, I returned at seven with a sweaty shirt and wet hair.

Oh, and I used my new pair of running shoes for the first time. 'Tis for a healthy-to-be 2011. Way to go, Yuichi. Hoho.

A post that doesn't know where to go

2:54am

Not even a yawn.

I slept earlier at 5 in the afternoon, woke up to the sound of my alarm at 7:30, but only got out of bed past ten. I would've continued to sleep if I had an early dinner; but I didn't, and my tummy's grumbling, so I had to munch on something.

I thought this day would be productive. I had planned to do my assignmnents, both in our org and in my academics. I lost control of time this Christmas break, so I really had to rush things. But there's one thing that's keeping me. One tiny thing that slows me down. I had to think of my life. It was quite some time before I actually did this.

Some Me-Time

When I was in high school, I never had the properly functioning body clock. I slept past midnight almost everyday, got up at bed (or forced out of bed) at four, dozed off on the trike going to school. Give me a few minutes, then I'd be asleep. Our break was for 20 minutes, which I either use for doing my assignments, or sleep. Lunch was for 40 minutes. I'd eat for 20, then doze off for the remaining 20. After classes, I'd play DoTA, stay at a friend's house (probably at Shan's), or go straight home. Eat dinner, do my assignments, then spend the rest of the night surfing the net. Mind you, I was on dial up. Internet connection was really slow. But I managed. Friendster. Porn Sites. Image Search Engines. All cool stuff, as I had thought. I was living my life at such a fast pace, I didn't know what the word rest means.

I don't know where this post leads to, I don't even have a specific point to say. I just want to "scribble" all my thoughts.

With all humility in my head, others regard me as an achiever. But behind those medals, high-marked exams, perfected grammar, memorized English quotes, smiles, laughter, good pieces of advice, good image (if I do have a good image).. a weak boy emerges. He isn't as tough as you have seen him. He is a crybaby who cries while watching movies, a hopeless romantic (as Ma'am Charm regards me) who loves deeply yet always gets hurt, an insomniac who'd choose to study rather than sleep, a weak-sprited man who'd give in to trifles and fake pleasures, a wanderer who loves to go out at night and stare blankly into thin air, a child who needs the image of a father, a perfectionist who sometimes forget to appreciate mediocrity. Now, you may see me as a pretentious piece of sh*t who ought to do a lot of changing. And I am trying, mind me. And trust me, it isn't easy.

Looking blankly into the future

I want to grow up. Have work. Work hard, then work harder. I want to keep myself busy. But if you ask me where all these efforts are directed, I'd stare at you hard. Maybe an "I don't even know.." is the best I can mumble. I want to grow up. I want to grow up. Now if time can't help with this, I think I'll have to make a few adjustments.

As others might have known, I do seek a visible father image; an image I am trying to complete until the present. Don't get me wrong, I have a father. He's alive, no marital problems whatsoever. Fine with finances, though I don't really care.

Is that reason enough why I frequent the streets at night looking at dads with their kids? Or, when I hold a basketball in my hand and wish I knew how to dribble it right? Or, when I have a good time hanging out with older men I regard as kuyas? I'm not so sure.

As I matured with the passing of days, I slowly started to make myself feel more responsible for the things that a father would have done. I'd think of sending my brother to college. I'd plan to save up for a good condo unit. However, not everything's for the family. I'd also plan to live far from home. Maybe with a parter, maybe alone. Then I'd go to work, keep myself busy again, and do the same things. Sorry if this post's becoming too childlike now. I doubt if anyone would even come too far to read this part, or if anyone would even find this post worth reading, or my blog, or.. the list goes on. *laughs*

On a much lighter mood

I think this should be on another post.

*sighs* People grow up. Some grow slow, others grow fast. Or it might be on another view: We all grow up, all at the same pace, only with different perspectives. Some might be too busy thinking first thing in the morning, only to find themselves at bed at night, the day gone without them noticing. Others, on other hand, may live life slowly; think of things one at a time, laugh some, cry some, and wake up the next day to find other things to do. As I have done.

Filipino Runs Through My Veins

5:10pm
Pupungas-pungas pa

I've decided to also use Filipino in this blog. Sabi din kasi ng PI 100 teacher ko (Prof. Beng Boro-Magbanua), maraming salita sa wika naten na hindi na walang katumbas sa mga wikang banyaga.

Dahil naalala ko siya, bigla kong naalala ang nangyari noong nakaraang Thursday. It was stressful, to say the least. Hindi natuloy ang PI 100 class dahil walang gustong magrecite. Pfft. Dapat nag-recite nako nun eh.

I slept at around 8 in the morning. Katatapos 'lang kasi ng finals sa org. Yihee! Welcome Batch Rose! *clap clap clap*

I'm not sure exactly what to do. I have brushed my teeth, read messages, and started to hear my tummy growl. The thing is, I'm the only one awake. I don't want to eat alone.

Sige na. This post has gone too long. Ang dami ko kasi gustong ikuwento. *laughs*

All For A Good Cause

4:00am
Sleepless night

I'm now sure that I won't be attending my morning class, which starts in less than four hours. *sighs*

However, it's been a fine night. We have finished another chapter in our ad hoc team. And mind you, it wasn't easy. This was the most comfortable time that we have in common, so we have no other choice.

Plus, we spent quality time at Antonio's. I do miss going there. However, I should constantly remind myself that I also have to save money.

I wonder what time would I wake up.

Because I Got Jealous

9:51 am

Because I got jealous, I also tried a link from Ana's blog.

I got this.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

I think so too.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Yes, my taste is very exotic. Haha. Though I don't know about the serious people stuff. I usually go for loud and funny people in a relationship.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

I can't comment on this matter. I really wish I could.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

What?? I know, I tend to get multiple crushes. But that ends there.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

I don't even know my views on education. Or at least, I haven't thought much about it.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

Plus, I tend to overwork myself.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

No I don't. I'm not afraid of failure. I do like challenges.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

*laughs* I don't need to be accepted by everyone, that would have been too much. I'm contented with my current circle of friends, but would feel very blessed to have some more.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I guess I really am. i reckon most of us experienced the need to have others by our side. That's where I release most of my unstored energy - in finding friends.

Friday!

9:27am

at UPLB Main Library

Time reaally flies. Last week I just had a very very very untimely fever. Good for me for it only lasted a day.

I just had a weird dream. I saw myself at home, relaxing. The atmosphere was there, really there.

And then I woke up.

Back to reality. I had opted not to go home this weekend at Las Pinas. I had so much stuff on my to-do list.

• A powerpoint presentation due by Monday
• Readings on Rizal (PI 100)
• Catching up on the world of Operations Research (I really am left behind..)
• REST

I used to say to myself from time to time, "Hey kiddo, catch some sleep. Hindi ka naman robot eh. Baka bumigay ka niyan." Of course I don't really use the hey kiddo phrase. Just for emphasis. *laughs*

Last night I talked with Ana, and we shared a few sentiments. I was sober then. Our conversation passed through the blog thing. I do believe blogs (in my case, my blog) give the readers and the blogger something intangible, though I'm not certain what that thing is. Peace of mind, perhaps. She then said she started blogging when she was in high school, with a highschool-ey grammar. Once I have the spare time, I'll be reading it. Anyway, you may catch up with her life here.

Back to re-ugh-lity.

Tis for you.

4:07am

After reading some posts

Clear those thoughts. Let's have a new beginning.

A Clean Mash

I'm sorry if I hurt you, if my deeds had gone that bad.

For the words I had wrongly chosen, for the friend you thought you once had.

But don't despair my dear, I had never left your side.

I had been gone only for the nights, and shall return even against the tide.

'Tis with love and despair that we shared each pain.

And remembering it all, makes me want to wait in vain.

For the time to bear with me, to listen to my wish.

I long to hear your laughter, with a smile that's childish.

But if you'll walk away from me, I let you take the path,

That would ease the pain you're feeling. Now let me do the Math:

Let's start by subtracting the memories we once made.

Now what would be left? Nothing under the shade.

And if it's still not enough, let us add another friend.

He'll say he'll laugh with you, until the day goes to an end.

But when the night comes in, tears fall in your eyes,

When he's gone, you then would sigh, "The laughter were just lies."

So please bear with be when I'm mad, or when I'm cyring, or when I'm gone.

Cause I never left your side to replace you for another one.

For a life minus Wich is yet to have a proof

For a moment of me and you we would never be aloof.

And..you're name's on this post: an anagram I hid somewhere.

Single-ness

2:38am

Insomnia strikes back

I just had this thought on single awareness. After that, questions (and questions on those questions) kept on bugging me.

• Are there people who are afraid of being single?
• Why do some people do not like to fall in love?
• Is there such a thing as single but taken?

First, I tried to identify people in this business. Here they are.

PERSONALITY 1: The ever loyal stalker.

• Yeah, he's single.. and he's proud of it.
• He knows her birthday, her mother's birthday, even her boyfriend's birthday.
• Ask him about the last post she had posted on Facebook, and he knows the answer.
• He likes to see her, but at a distance.
• Looking at her already makes his day, even if it's just a printed picture (which he got from her FB account).
• He likes to torture himself, all while falling in love with her.

Quotable quote: Ok nakong tignan siya sa malayo. Masaya nako.

Usual activity: Stalking. Of course. Pfft.

What to do with him: Slap him in the face! "Move on b*tch!" She's not yours anyway.

Adjective: Martyrdom to the nth power (where n is very large).

PERSONALITY 2: The-always-on-the-lookout guy.

• He's also single, but his mind keeps on searching.
• Develops a crush on the class secretary, on the lady at the coffee shop, on the cute instructor. Err, on every girl he actually meets.
• He thinks that he will meet the his destined one in a matter of minutes, so he grabs EVERY opportunity at hand.
• He meets a girl, then after a moment, he'll say to himself, "She's the one!" He'll be doing this again and again. Quite persevering actually.

Quotable quote: Siya na talaga 'tol. Sure nako. (with matching smile)

Usual activity: Looking for chikababes (the right one, as he calls them).

What to do with him: Just ignore him. He won't realize his mistake if women keeps on entertaining him.

Adjective: Flirt? Nah. Desperate, he is.

PERSONALITY 3: The true friend.

• Single too.
• Nothing's pretty much wrong with this guy.
• He's not a flirt. He looks nice.
• ..and he's in love!
• Destiny had done its part:
• They had been stuck in the elevator for 8 hours, slept together at a pajama party (nothing happened), dated with a group.
• All to no avail. Why?
• But he'd rather be friends with the girl.
• AND HE ISN'T GAY! *laughs*

Quotable quote: True friends last forever. (kept on saying that to himself over and over again)

Usual activity: Having moments with her. But no commitment.

What to do with him: Do the move! If she'll be the Filipina that she is, nothing will happen.

Adjective: Coward. Chicken!

PERSONALITY 4: The unrequited lover.

• It's all so clear. She just doesn't love her.
• He'll say, "I love you.. more than you'll ever know."
• Then, she'll have an arsenal of replies under her sleeve.
• "I love you too, but only as a brother.."
• "My heart's just not ready now." (and it might never be)
• *dead silence*
• ..or other stuff that's only clear of one thing.
• He has no chance. Nil. Zero. Boklogs.

Quotable quote: I'll be wait for you. (paawa effect)

Usual activity: Doing everything he can to win her heart.

What to do with him: Ask God to give him the right girl. Men like him are few in this world.

Adjective: Ouch. (is that an adjective?)

I still have more on my mind. But I think, I should be getting some sleep first. Laguna's gonna be my next destination in a couple of hours. Good night!

Few last words: It's fun to be single. It really is.

NetLogo Loco

3:15am

Here at Las Pinas with Ninong by my side (no implications there)

I'm all about NetLogo today! And my Ninong too. We ought to finish this research paper by the weekend. We're laughing as we have started with an abstract. Besides, classes are about to start. Tough luck for me, I have 7am classes from Tuesday to Friday! What can be worse than that.

I really love Programming. *wide grin*

Random Shot

Date: October 31, 2010

Place: Mall of Asia

It's my first date with Lola Rose! I won't forget the pieces of advice, the food and music we shared, the laughter, everything. I love you la!

Chapter 2

1:50pm

While suppressing my Cloud 9 strawberry cravings

And so I'm continuing the three-chapter escapade of mine. You might read Chapter 1 first.

By Friday morning, my high school friends came to UP Los Banos. UP Los Banos. UP Los Banos. That kept on ringing inside my head. How they made up their minds to come to my campus, I don't know. I was hoping for a trip around the urban area, or U-belt, or I don't know.. A mall perhaps.

Well, so much for that. I met them at Robinson's Los Banos, they bought a couple of drinks, chips, and noodles. That's for the long night ahead.

After dropping our things at Chass's place, we toured them around the campus. For the pictures, you can view them at these links links links links.

By nighttime, we went to the foot of Mount Makiling. Night swimming it was.

I hasd fun no doubt about that. We just chatted all night, laughed, shared news, and shared secrets. No outing would be complete without shocking revelations. *laughs*

I'll be posting the third chapter later. Wait! Have you tried Cloud 9 Strawberry? You better try it. Mmmm. Will buy one later.

From the left: Dung, XT, Yap, Chass, Carlo, Phoebe, Prince, Yuichi, Danjo, Deanne

New Look

How'd you like my new template? Cheers!

Chapter 1

11:45am

A just-woke-up post

Vacation! At last, I could say that to myself. I just had my first good night's rest in this too-good-to-be-true vacation. I admit, I don't even have all week for my vacation, but this would suffice. Really suffice.

Friday could have been my vacation but I just have to have this much needed three-episode escapade with my friends.

Chapter 1: Bonding with SMM

I just had fun with my brods and sisses from SMM (Society of Math Majors). We had all (Thursday) night for ourselves. The landlady went to Cebu and was back only last Tuesday. We watched Click (2007), laughed all night, and slept well. Take me for example, I had Kuya Jomel by my side, so I really had a goood sleep. *laughs*

A million thanks to Kuya Bryan for the jokes (magsama sila ni Micah, as Ninong had said), kuya Jomel for the food, and to everyone for a really good night.

Other people who were at the scene: Ate Eloi, Ate Aja, Ninong Mel, Kuya Jas, Ate Mace, Micah, Ate Andria. Did I miss some?

The next two chapters I would post laterrr. I'll take a bath first. It's hot here in Las Piñas. Have a good vacation everyone!

Change

11:31pm

Getting ready to go back to elbi

I barely got some rest. I just came home from an annual convention on Nature Studies in Baguio. It was a "sumptuous" trip - complete with a dash of adventure, a pinch of surprise, and of course, cupfuls of information. I could've bled to death if I tried to absorb all of them.

I'll try to make a separate post on the hows and whys of me going to that convention.

Now, here I am. Preparing for a major change that I'm about to make in a few hours. No more questions. I AM READY.

Since this blog bore witness to many of my joys and pangs, I once again trusted my bloggy on this matter.

I will be changing my major option as an Applied Mathematics undergrad student. Let me expound on that.

I am currently under the first option, Actuarial Science (AS). In layman's terms, I study all about life insurance, stock market, Mathematical Finance. In laymanER's terms, it's just about money, life, and death.

However, lately, I've been blessed to do research. Specifically, I was tasked to do research. The thing is, all of them are focused on the other option - Operations Research (OR). "The Science of Better", as I hear many OR people quote.

Just a few weeks ago, I often find myself at a lost state. I seemed to think hard about something, then forget it immediately afterwards. 'Twas true, I tell you. It was not good to feel.

While I was at Baguio, I kept on talking with the Applied Math people that I was with. Then I realized that I needed to change. I had so many reasons, and it was just now that I finalized it.

Another adventure's gonna come my way. Life just keeps on becoming better by the moment.

By the way, special thanks to Sir Jomar Rabajante for sponsoring my trip to Baguio. Labyu Sir Joms! Haha, kidding. You're the best.

Inability

12:18am

Freezing cold here in Baguio

But so much for cold feet. They're probably the least of my worries at this point.

INABILITY. Yes, that's what's bugging my mind for a few minutes now. I have to decide on so many things for the moment. The thing is, I have to wake up for a program at around 7 in the morning, and that's going to happen in a few hours.

Have I done too much wrong in my life? The answer just came about a few hours ago.

"Oo naman, kahit ano namang gawin mo may hindi sasangayon di ba?"

"Whatever you do, you can't please everyone, right?"

Just a list of the things I should do before the second semester starts asap.

1. Finish my unfinished SA work.

I have been an irresponsible SA indeed. I have left for Baguio with a lot of encoding to do.

2. Fix my heart.

Move on, get over things, stop messing around with people, quit playing games, throw false hopes. Yes, they all equate to one thing. I should be getting a head start. The mid-year break should grant me the opportunity. And yes dear, I'm going to grab it.

3. Get good relationships.

Lately, I have made a few new acquaintances, and it hurts me when I my other friends for granted. Am I really a good friend? Or am I just there when the good times get going? I can't seem to see (specifically) where I have done something wrong, so maybe you can tell me exactly where.

4. Minimize hurt.

Yes, myself included. I want to be happy, though I'm sure to hurt many people. Sheesh. I really don't know.

So sorry for the long post. I kinda missed my blog. We have a lot of coping up to do.

When Things Go Out of Hand

1:04pm
Can't help but smile

I got home at around 5:30 in the morning. Barely slept. My tummy making some funny noise.
But today was a day worth remembering.

One bad thing? I went too far. I watched The Couples' Retreat and Shutter Island, though. *winks*

A Very Dreaded Thing

10:37pm
Blogging when I shoudn't be

O yeah, I have a truckload of responsibilities to be taken care of: papers, researches, more papers, and.. that. That that.

Imagine yourself trying hard to foresee things that might happen. People save a lot of effort and time when they do forecast future events. Take for example a typical student preparing for examinations. When he has made the necessary preparations, he is sure to have a direct advantage.

Regarding this issue, I DID prepare myself. Falling in love. It's a lame thing. Well, not exactly lame, it's just that I didn't expect it to hit me this hard.

As of the moment, I'm in my room. Alone. I went upstairs, but can't find the right person to hug. So I kinda "hugged" my blog. Well, you may also "hug" me back. *winks*

Just when I thought I've become a wiser man to not let my guard down, things start to get out of control.

Err, got to go back to my aforementioned "truckload" of responsibilities.

Random Shot

Date: August 24, 2010
Place: Apartment, Banawe St.

"Magkakapalit na tayo ng mukha," I used to say that to Merryl. Now, I never dared to mention it again. Might come true, scare the hell out of me.

RUMOR SPREAD, AND FAST

August 25, 2010
Taking advantage of the wi-fi connection in the Math building and the free lab in 174

Up to now, I can still flash (at least) a weak smile when I am reading Sir Joms' paper. I can't believe I became part of it; even the thought of contributing a gazillionth of a part sometimes gives me the goosebumps. Luckily I'm never having an attitude, I'm even humbled.

August 27 is the date to be. Should do things quick, but precise. Tonight will be a working night. That means another fun night for me. Weee.

174: A success!

August 20, 2010
A few short breaths and a smirk on my face

At last, the restless nights came out to be oh so fine. *grins*
When I looked at our tarpaulin, I smiled and smiled with a smile that's more than a smile. All those 3-hour nights of sleep finally paid off.

Special thanks to Sir Joms for the unending support. He really did wonders, or so I thought.

Update as of Monday, August 23
Sir said we can modify our poster presentation a bit, and enter it in a conference or what. More work, but the hell I care. I AM having fun.

Coffeeshops for a change.

August 19, 2010
Standing with my last ounce of energy

"Sheesh, you could've told us earlier," I could have said that to Signeffex (the printing shop) when we reach its barred walls. Very much against our will, we dragged our feet to any place we might find relaxing. I suggested a sort-of-a-date date with her, saying we could go anywhere. We even thought of going to Olivarez for pizza. That was far.

We ended up at Cafe Antonio, now located in LB Square. We watched a movie, shared a few drinks, ate a few, drank a free coffee, and had fun. That night was all about fun. We cared less about what might happen tomorrow.

After all, we earned this night.

Random Shot

Date: August 5, 2010
Place: My apartment in Banawe St.

The one wearing black glasses is Bert (Robert Capati), Meh (Merryl Canlas) is the cute one, and I'm the one in the middle. We watched How To Train Your Dragon, and boy it was good. This one's special because we were friends since freshie times. When we meet up, it's either someone's having a birthday or we just miss each other.

Jojo for the win

1:34pm
Still thinking about last night

Something cape up last night. I was surfing the net, then my instructor sent me a message in Facebook.

The conversation was somewhat like this:
Mystery Man: Nacheck-an ko na paper mo. (I already checked your paper)
Me: Talaga! Pwede po malaman score ko? (Really! Can I know my score?)

And so on. That was the start. Then we got to joke around things. I really had fun. But something came up that really kept me in awe and smiles for a moment.

He opened up something I can't believe. It's like in the movies when you keep on slapping yourself to check if it's just a dream? Haha, kidding.

I can't tell it right now. But one thing's for sure - it's gonna be exciting!
For the second time, I love you Sir Rabajante! Thank you for this one. *laughs*

Patting Myself on the Back

1:24pm
Throwing all the crap away. It's time to have fun!

I do need some patting on the back. For one, I just did sooo many things! Next, my back does ache. I do self massage. Clearly, not enough.

A quick list of have-done things:

Said goodbye to Fargo
He was my tutee for only two sessions. Lived in Makati. Through him, I learned to travel on my own. Got lost. Walked through the streets of Makati with a laptop on one hand and clenched fist on the other. Glorietta, SM Ayala, Dusit Hotel, Walter, Don Bosco, Yuchengco Museum. An adventure indeed. Too bad he already left for New York.

Getting the hang of things with Aimon
I'm not doing the frequent handouts for him anymore. I just go to Real thrice a week, prepare my mind, say a little prayer, flash a smile, then off we go. Seven hours a week? It's not too much of a stress.

Being an SA..
..doesn't mean you'd get too much money. It's more of an experience for me. When I told people I worked for a few hours equivalent to roughly 600 pesos. They had their qualms. But it doesn't really matter much. *laughs*

Getting examination results
AMAT171 - 75%
MATH 181 - 68%
MATH 174 - 70.5%
Not bad eh? *grins* More to go. I keep on crossing my fingers.

A lot of things for only a week! PalaCASan's just getting fired up. So much to expect. Let's have this kind of enthusiasm sustained.

A week-end report

12:58pm
At home, going gaga over the free time I have in my hands

So far so good. That sentence says it all. When you have a bunch of exams (and many other things) popping out of your calendar, all you want is to have everything under control. I used to say to myself in the past two weeks, "Two hours of sleep would be enough for now. Babawi na 'lang ako sa weekends." But the truth is, I can't even call my weekends weekends. In the past two weeks, I had part-time jobs, met new people, lost my way around Makati, rode a Green Star Bus for the first time, and many other things. Up to now, I still manage to flash a smile and call myself a superman in my own sense.

And for the record, I keep on saying to myself, "I'll watch Inception, no matter what." like for 5 times already.

I do get a few moments to breathe and think about the bigger picture. And every single time, I am happy. Maybe I just got used to the hectic schedule, or it's just plain me to look for something to do. I really am not sure.

Best of luck to us!

Catching Up With Lost Time

12:44am
Here in Las Pinas, listening to more sad songs

It's been three weeks since I went home. Sad to say, I will again stay here only for a day, then off I return to Los Banos. It's the life I chose to take. So while I had the time, I grabbed a few pictures. Whoo, I really miss it here.

We really look alike. Like mother, like son.

And my here's my brother, sometimes a bother actually. But I love him anyway.

Nothing beats family, that's for sure!

When Time is the Real Enemy

Waking up two hours past my alarm clock

As I looked at the time on my phone, I gave a big sigh. "I wish there were 25 hours a day." I would often say that to myself. When every opportunity rushes upon you, all you want to have is enough time. And there never seems to be enough of it.

My usual routine from Tuesdays to Fridays is on a pattern. I wake up at 6 in the morning, do classes or part-time jobs until I take my lunch. After a rushed lunch, it's pretty much the same thing until 4 or 5 in the afternoon. For Wednesdays and Fridays, I busy myself with Aimon until 6 or 7. Then take dinner, do my assignments. I barely even have the time to doze off at noon.

I was just wondering, am I growing up too fast? Well, it clearly was a choice that I made. And I'm just hoping for the best. Do hope with me.

Freezing indeed

9:35am
Freezing

My first exam this semester, with Dr. Dorado. That was all what my mind can handle. I can't help but feel excited and anxious at the same time. First, this is my first exam, so I am still not used to conditioning myself (what a lame excuse). But it's true. Second, I am hearing rumors that he (Dr. Dorado) gives way too hard an exam. Whew.

And by the way, to increase the tension, I will be having a free dinner from Romel for a grade of 80% and above, but will be the one treating him otherwise.

Pray for me. Pleaaase.

A Private Guy Thing

Recovering

I once again realized how hard it is to cry and not have anyone by your side. Maybe my case is just different. But the truth is, I just can't share everything to my family.

Life is still a balance of good and bad events. This week (Monday to Friday) proved to be a blessing-filled week. But my 16-hour stay at home stayed on the other side of the weighing scale. I cried. Hard.

After crying, I wondered why I don't like to cry in front of anyone else. Well, aside from the fact that crying is a private activity. Is it just innate for men to shed their tears alone?

That's the main reason why I blogged, I can't share everything to anyone, anytime. I love you blog. Don't leave me again.

Oh, and happy birthday ate Eloi!

Expectation sucks. Big time.

8:08pm

Listening to Each Tear by Mary Blige feat Jay Sean (cool song)

After a week of walking, processing papers, body meetings, nominations, assignments, frustrations, headaches, laughter and several hugs, I came to realize that much much more still needs to be done.

I just realized some things:

1. People do have fake faces that they display by default. Of course, you don't know when the real thing shows up.

2. At the end of every day, I do get stressed and get all grumpy like an old man.

3. Some people get greedy and just won't share their notes. Talk about a single formula that I wasn't able to copy. It's not an assignment dear, so don't despair. Next time, I know better. What's more disheartening, I just talked to that person the day before, and showed my assignment in Math 174.

4. Because of no.3, you just can't expect too much. Expectation sucks. Big time.

5. I have to save money. I will be working at a rate of 30 per hour, so I can't just waste money on needless things.

6. I am missing someone. Someones actually. More likely a group. But right now, I think it's a tad impossible.

I ought to smile all the way home. I just found myself an online copy of Actuarial Mathematics by Bowers et al. AMAT 171, I'm ready more than ever.