Chapter 1

11:45am

A just-woke-up post

Vacation! At last, I could say that to myself. I just had my first good night's rest in this too-good-to-be-true vacation. I admit, I don't even have all week for my vacation, but this would suffice. Really suffice.

Friday could have been my vacation but I just have to have this much needed three-episode escapade with my friends.

Chapter 1: Bonding with SMM

I just had fun with my brods and sisses from SMM (Society of Math Majors). We had all (Thursday) night for ourselves. The landlady went to Cebu and was back only last Tuesday. We watched Click (2007), laughed all night, and slept well. Take me for example, I had Kuya Jomel by my side, so I really had a goood sleep. *laughs*

A million thanks to Kuya Bryan for the jokes (magsama sila ni Micah, as Ninong had said), kuya Jomel for the food, and to everyone for a really good night.

Other people who were at the scene: Ate Eloi, Ate Aja, Ninong Mel, Kuya Jas, Ate Mace, Micah, Ate Andria. Did I miss some?

The next two chapters I would post laterrr. I'll take a bath first. It's hot here in Las Piñas. Have a good vacation everyone!

Change

11:31pm

Getting ready to go back to elbi

I barely got some rest. I just came home from an annual convention on Nature Studies in Baguio. It was a "sumptuous" trip - complete with a dash of adventure, a pinch of surprise, and of course, cupfuls of information. I could've bled to death if I tried to absorb all of them.

I'll try to make a separate post on the hows and whys of me going to that convention.

Now, here I am. Preparing for a major change that I'm about to make in a few hours. No more questions. I AM READY.

Since this blog bore witness to many of my joys and pangs, I once again trusted my bloggy on this matter.

I will be changing my major option as an Applied Mathematics undergrad student. Let me expound on that.

I am currently under the first option, Actuarial Science (AS). In layman's terms, I study all about life insurance, stock market, Mathematical Finance. In laymanER's terms, it's just about money, life, and death.

However, lately, I've been blessed to do research. Specifically, I was tasked to do research. The thing is, all of them are focused on the other option - Operations Research (OR). "The Science of Better", as I hear many OR people quote.

Just a few weeks ago, I often find myself at a lost state. I seemed to think hard about something, then forget it immediately afterwards. 'Twas true, I tell you. It was not good to feel.

While I was at Baguio, I kept on talking with the Applied Math people that I was with. Then I realized that I needed to change. I had so many reasons, and it was just now that I finalized it.

Another adventure's gonna come my way. Life just keeps on becoming better by the moment.

By the way, special thanks to Sir Jomar Rabajante for sponsoring my trip to Baguio. Labyu Sir Joms! Haha, kidding. You're the best.

Inability

12:18am

Freezing cold here in Baguio

But so much for cold feet. They're probably the least of my worries at this point.

INABILITY. Yes, that's what's bugging my mind for a few minutes now. I have to decide on so many things for the moment. The thing is, I have to wake up for a program at around 7 in the morning, and that's going to happen in a few hours.

Have I done too much wrong in my life? The answer just came about a few hours ago.

"Oo naman, kahit ano namang gawin mo may hindi sasangayon di ba?"

"Whatever you do, you can't please everyone, right?"

Just a list of the things I should do before the second semester starts asap.

1. Finish my unfinished SA work.

I have been an irresponsible SA indeed. I have left for Baguio with a lot of encoding to do.

2. Fix my heart.

Move on, get over things, stop messing around with people, quit playing games, throw false hopes. Yes, they all equate to one thing. I should be getting a head start. The mid-year break should grant me the opportunity. And yes dear, I'm going to grab it.

3. Get good relationships.

Lately, I have made a few new acquaintances, and it hurts me when I my other friends for granted. Am I really a good friend? Or am I just there when the good times get going? I can't seem to see (specifically) where I have done something wrong, so maybe you can tell me exactly where.

4. Minimize hurt.

Yes, myself included. I want to be happy, though I'm sure to hurt many people. Sheesh. I really don't know.

So sorry for the long post. I kinda missed my blog. We have a lot of coping up to do.